23- Holding Back Continued

Welcome to track #23 of Give thyself holy. Hallelujah, glory to God you guys are doing a great job. Where are we? What is #5 holding back comes from looking back in it. Luke 9 verse 62. Jesus said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough and looking back, is fit for the Kingdom of God. Amen. Who are you looking back to in a relationship? The thinking of an old boyfriend and an old girlfriend and an old love. Then you become cool towards Mr. Unfortunate who has decided to brother Unfortunate who has decided to belaidose you his brother. What brother? Unfortunate as he's come with all his heart giddy, giddy, He's brought himself first love. You are his first love. That he is your 17th love. He is your 17th love. And you are remembering #16 #14 #12 #11 #10 So your love is restrained. You get it. And but I'm fortunate it has come to belather those you oh busy. So looking back, you realize that you are not flowing in this relationship. You are not happy because you are thinking that other brother Charlie, he was very gentle, she was very kind. He used to speak softly. She meant harsh, so we shouting difficult. He's raw, unimproved. But I like the other guy. That guy was funny, you know, He was funny. He was nice to be with, he used to crack jokes and we're always happy. Wow. But this one is, I mean always scriptures, Leviticus. I mean, he doesn't have anything to say apart from scriptures and after somehow boring. Not that I don't believe in the word. I like the word, not that it's boring, but it's like I want him to talk about other things, but it's mostly holiness, codes, scripture and other things. Church work and all that. Not that I'm against the church, I'm not against the church, but it's easy. It's true. It's like everything is about that. And then when he's talking to me, it's always as if he's talking to a sheep, but I'm not a sheep. I'm a beloved and he's speaking like a shepherd, sharing things and saying you must do this, are you working on this? Are you doing this? And I'm not experiencing love and friendship. It's more shepherdorial belabidosis. It's like it's counseling me always. I'm undergoing constant counseling. I want a normal relationship without too much counseling. There are no flowers in the relationship. In my old relationship, I was there when I was in the house when I received a DHL. When I opened the DHL, what did I see? I love you. He has sent it from Danzoman to Labadi DHLDHL. When I opened the theater, I thought it was from abroad, that it was just from Ladakhi here. When I opened, they said I love you. I showed it to all my friends and they said, oh, this one there, your beloved, is something supernatural. Supernatural a 1. But this one, social counselling and advice is always giving advice. Exhortation. Since we went to the camp and they spoke about exhortation, the exhortation has never ended. Wow. Oh, you are married. You are sleeping with your husband and you are remembering somebody. You are saying that this guy doesn't know anything. Oh, is it a nice way of thinking? Oh, his brother. Virgin Atlantic brother. Inexperienced brother. I have to train him. I have to teach him the name. You have remembered Desi Daniel. Wow. So looking back makes you hold back. Watch out for those of you who are looking back. Yeah, When you decide you are going into the ministry, don't look back again. When I decide I'm going to the ministry, I said poverty, riches, 0. Nothing. I'm going all the way. Yeah. When I started healing Jesus Christ, I said whether anybody counts or not to the crusade, I will have the crusade. I will have the crusade. Yeah, this one is burning fast because some people's lives go faster. So sometimes by the age of 20th, much of your life has gone already. You don't take the whole day the whole time. You normally it will last the whole day. So by around 4:00, I will give myself holy. But not only you are going to expire at 11:00. Yeah. So it's going so fast. This one took the whole off yesterday. Yeah, this one, a few hours is getting finished because his life is shorter. He's been allotted a shorter time, but he doesn't know. Wow. So looking back now, looking back can make you lose what you have. Holding back can make you lose what you have. That's the next one. You can lose everything. Songs of Solomon, Chapter 5. This one. I have come into my garden, my sister, my bride. I have gathered my myrrh along with my balsam. I have eaten my honey. I have drunk my wine and my milk. Eat friends, drink and imbibe deeply. Oh, lovers, I was asleep, but my heart was awake. Songs of Solomon 5 Verse 2 A voice, my beloved was knocking, hoping to me, my sister, my darling, my dove, my perfect one. For my head is drenched with dew, my locks with the damp of the night. Verse three I have taken off my dress, on my robe. How can I dirty them again? My beloved extended his hand through the opening, and my feelings were aroused for him. 3 Shabaya Verse 5I arose to open to my beloved. My hands dripped with Mir and my fingers with liquid Mir on the handles of the boats. I opened to my beloved, but my beloved had turned away and had gone. My heart went out for him. I searched for him, but I did not find him. I called him but he did not answer. I sought him. He was gone. How sad. Look at how the guy came with zeal looking for his beloved, he said. My head is filled with dew, my arms and my hands are filled with mere Minisa deponent. My feelings were aroused for him. I I have rose to open to my beloved. My hands dripped with Mary. I have taken off. But you see, the thing started by giving excuses when she said to him open up. The story keeps shifting from one speaker to the other. When he said my beloved was knocking open to me, open to me, my sister, my darling, then she started giving excuses already. I'm already in bed. I've washed my feet, I've bathed already. How can I dirty them again? Excuses. Oh, reluctance, holding back, but how did it all end? I opened to my beloved, but my beloved had turned away and had gone. My heart went out to him as he spoke. I searched for him, but I could not find him. I called him, but he did not answer. See. Because by the time she now made-up her mind to flow, the beloved has gone. That's why I say have long relationships. So that way you see that Charlie laugh. You know, it is one way. You just go your way and find somebody whose love will be a little nearer your love. Yeah, Charlie, you can write it down. I pity you. When you marry and you see that your love is like this and the person's love is like this, you send texts. You will call a do not understand what is happening to you. The person has withheld the love arteris and obelisk. Arteris is small and obelisk is big, Big love and small love. Holding back can lead you can make you lose your love. There are some people who have lost my love for them in a certain sense. Not that I don't love them with the love of the Lord, but the passion and interest and view that I had for them and in them. I don't have that passion and view, but I had that love and I stretched out my hand to my beloved. Try to get in. I was getting excuses. By the time they opened, I was gone. I just walked away. It's true. Now come giddy, giddy, Charlie. Let's do this. Let's go here. Let's do this for them. If you look at somebody like Bishop Saki or Bishop Eddie, the love that I have for the Lord and the love that they had for the Lord is the same kind of love up. So today, see, that even makes us close because when people with different loves are interacting, you can't be so close. Because I love business, You love the Lord, I love ministry, you love something else. Yeah, that it was. And when you recognize Charlie, look, look for somebody who laughs like you love and stay with that person. Yeah, Charlie, look for somebody who laughs the way you laugh and stay with that person. Yeah, that's the advice I'll give you. I remember, you know, when you enter the Arab block in medical hostel. Arab Block. What is the first room on the left? What's the number? R What? After the protest lodge on the left, you know there are three When you enter, there's straight, there's right, there's left. The left is working R1. It starts from one R1 or R2R1R2. Yeah, that's where I remember a conversation I had with Bishopsaki over there. Yeah, he was saying he wants to evangelize, wants to win souls for God. It's all that he wants to do. I recognized a laugh that I also had. I didn't really know him, but I started to. This is a person that I can stay with. You know, find somebody with similar love when you marry and you find another Asuma. She only wanted children, but not you. A lot of people don't know that. That's why their hearts are broken. There's only children you wanted, not really you. When you ask do you love your husband, you ask what? What is love? What, what what? What? What do you mean by love? If it is you are now defining. Don't marry somebody who doesn't have same kind of love. Amen. Love is very important, holding back is painful and I want to pray for everybody who doesn't understand what I'm saying. Let me pray for you Father. All those who don't understand what I'm saying, let them experience it so that they will believe it in Jesus name. Should I say Amen? OK, because we are looking at me strange. Now are you there? You are going home. Do you have breakfast today? Nothing. OK, we are going all the way now. Holding back can kill people Holding back. Second Samuel Chapter 11 in the spring. Second Samuel Chapter 11, verse one in the spring, at the time when kings go off to war, David sent Joab out with The Kingsmen and they destroyed the Ammonites and besieged Rabbah, but David remained in Jerusalem. When it's time to go to war, you are staying in the house. When it's time to go to church, you are in the house, you are in the hostel. Hey, when it's time to be at the camp, look at where you are. One evening, David got up from his bed and walked around on the roof of the palace, and from the roof he saw a woman bathing. This is ancient pornography and David sent someone to find out about her and the man said this is Bathsheba the wife of Urea the Hittite. Then David sent messengers to get her. She came to him and he slept with her. She had purified herself from her uncleanness so she went back home. The woman conceived and sent a word to David saying I am pregnant. So David sent this word to Joab, send me Urea the Hittite, and Joab sent him to David. When Urea came to him, Urea was one of the soldiers, the husband of this woman. When Urea came to him, David asked him how is Joab? Oh please, he's fine. How are the soldiers and how is the war? Yuria said it is working. Then David said to you, go down to your house and wash your feet and nutracea in coded form. Wash your feet. It has a meaning. Relax, be happy and forget about the war where you are fighting and do something. Nice for yourself. So Yuria left the palace, and a gift from the king was sent after him. But Yuria did not go home. He slept at the entrance to the palace with all his master's servants, and did not go down to his house. When David was told Yuria. When David was told that Yuria did not go home, he asked him, Haven't you just come from a distance? Why didn't you go home? Irias said to David. The Ark and Israel and Judah are staying in tents, and my master Joab and my Lords, men are camped in the open fields. How can I go to my house to eat and drink and live with my wife? And surely as you leave I will not do such a thing. I should be enjoying blowing time when everybody is struggling. What a soldier, I said. What a soldier. Then David said to him, Stay here one more day, and tomorrow I'll send you back. So Urea remained in Jerusalem that day and the next, at David's invitation. He drank. He ate and drank with him, and David made him drunk. But in the evening, Urea went out to sleep on his mat among his master's servants, and he did not go home. There are there are several possible reasons why I might. I know. I want to tell you why he didn't go home in the morning. David wrote a letter to Joab and sent it with Urea in it. He wrote put yeah, he sent it with Urea. He said put Urea in the front line where the fighting is fiercest, then, then, then withdraw, withdraw, withdraw. What does the King James say? Retire ye from him. The NIV and the American Bible says withdraw or hold back your forces. Are you listening to me? So while Joab had the city under siege, he put Urea at a place where he knew the strongest defenders were. And when the men of the city came out against Joab, some of the men in David's army fell. Moreover, Urea the Hittite died. So Joab sent David a full account of the battle and he instructed the messengers, When you have finished giving the king this account of the battle, the King's anger may flare up and he may ask you why did you get so close to the city to fight? Didn't you know that they would shoot arrows from the wall? Who killed Abimelech son of Jeruba chef? Didn't the woman threw an upper milestone on him from the wall so that he died in Tibet? Why did you get so close to the wall? If you ask, if he asks you this, then say to him also Urea the servant. Urea the Hittite is dead. The messenger set out and when he arrived he told David everything Jabba sent him to say. The messenger said to David. The men overpowered us and came out against us in the open, but we drove them back to the entrance of the city gate. When the actors shot at your servants from the world, some of the King's men died. Moreover, your servant Urea, the Hittite is dead, David told the messenger. Save this to Joab. Don't let this upset you. The sword defines one as well as another. Press the attack against the city and destroy it. Say this to encourage Joab. When Yuria's wife heard that her husband was dead, she mourned for him. And after that time was mourning. David had head brought to his house and she became his wife and bore him as time. But the thing David had done is please the Lord. It's a sad story, isn't it? Yeah. Wow. What caused the death of Urea the Hittite, apart from David's adultery? Withdrawal. How did they kill him? They withdrew. Yeah. You see, when the people who are supposed to help you withdraw, you can die because you trusted that you will all be together. Now I'm trusting that we will all be together going forward. Are you going to hold back? Wow. Are you listening to me? Yeah. Many times I've been out there alone thinking that I was going to make it with people, but they didn't come along. That's why I keep on reaching out more and more people. That's why I came to First Love Church, reaching out for more young people who will say, here I am, send me, let's all go together. Let's go to the war, Let's go to the mission field. Let's not hold back. Let not some people hold back what God is telling us. Let us all rise up together. Don't hold the heart on me. I'm trying to save myself to be wow, to get this together while this one is saying OK, I'm going. Then it becomes like Urea the hittite where when we are fighting at the hottest, Urea looked back and he said this has never happened before. That's why I said don't think it will. It will teach you not to think of a group. Charlie, are we going? We are not going. Are you going? I'm going. You just say to yourself, bye, I'm going. Whether somebody comes with me or not, I am going. That's the way your mind must work. If your mind doesn't work that way, they are not going to make it in the ministry. Because you would turn around and say, we were all doctors in the church. Oh, we all said, Natalie, we were going to this before I realized I'd gone to Seychelles. When I called back, I realized that nobody has gone and I'm the only one who has come to this island, Azoma. We were 15 and only two of us went when the others stayed back. Some of you are going to go to Indonesia, some of you are going to go to Africa, some of you are going to go to islands. Some of you are going to go to villages in Ghana, towns in Ghana and are not going to hold back. I said you go, I'll come later. No, no, no, no, no, no. And you must remember that we are not depending on you. We are all deciding. I am going by myself. I'm going by myself. If somebody happens to come, raise the Lord. If nobody comes, then I'm going alone. But at least I'm safer thinking that I'm alone than to think that I'm with five people and then they don't actually come. Is it true or it's not true? So holding back is a very dangerous thing. Amen. What do you think? Wow, how many points do you have? Eight points. Wow. The next one, holding back, right? Don't hold back so that you can expand. Don't hold back so that you can expand into the ministry God has for you. Amen. Isaiah chapter 54 Sing O barren woman, you who never bore a child, burst into song, Shout for joy you who were never in labor, because more are the children of the desolate woman than of a hair who has a husband, says the Lord. Enlarge your tent, the place of your tent. Stretch your tent curtains wide. Do not hold back, Do not hold back. Strengthen your stakes, for you will spread out to the right and to the left, and your descendants will dispossessed the nations and settle in their desolate cities. Do not be afraid, Do not hold back. Do not hold back. Lengthen your course rather. In other words, give yourself more. Amen. Give yourself more. Do not be afraid, you will not suffer shame. Do not fear disgrace. You will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood. For your Maker is your husband, the Almighty is His name. Do not fear disgrace. You will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth. You will not be disgraced. I thank the Lord for putting me into the ministry. Amen. I thought I would be disgraced by going to the ministry. I thought I would be ashamed that God has helped me all these years to be in the ministry. I thought I would be ashamed. I thought that my children wouldn't be able to go to any good school. I thought I would never travel again. But he said, enlarge your tent, don't hold back, lengthen your courts. Rather go out all out. You see, instead of just not holding back, go all the way. Give thyself holy to God. Give thyself holy to the Lord Totally. Yeah. And I tell some of you will do greater works. You will do greater works than have been done up until this time. Stand on your feet, everybody, for a moment. Hey, it's taking you a long time to stand up, all right? Just squeezing in. Lift your hands up for a moment. My God, help us not to hold back our love, our love for you. Amen. Help us Lord, Help us, Lord, never to hold back anything. Put down your hands. I feel in my heart a lot of people here are holding back. How many feel that you are holding back? How many feel that you are holding back? Raise your hand. God wants to deliver you from holding back. Now holding back, you are giving back. Let me let me keep something. Let me keep myself. Let me hold something so that I don't lose everything. Lift your hand and say, Lord, save me from the evil spirit of holding back. Help me to keep myself holy to you, holy to you, holy to you, my God, my God, my God, my God. 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